Sometimes what I really want is for someone to tell me what
to do.
There’s too much room for interpretation right now, and it’s
freaking me out.
Plus my boss is super excited about a set of experiments
that I REALLY don’t want to do. Not
because I think they’re bad experiments, I get her excitement and curiosity and
it’s certainly worth trying, but there are other methods I’d rather spend my time
on and that I think are more reliable, though this one does offer advantages
that others don’t….
Okay enough vague-ary.
I miss the good old days where I kept a to do list and my
boss continually added to it and I continually chipped away at it, and if I
didn’t feel like doing the thing at the top (unless it was important and couldn’t
be put off) I could go on to the next thing until the next time I felt inclined
to do whatever the first thing was. It was fun, I got to troubleshoot, I got to
use my hands, and then I got to pass the results off to him to worry about.
Does everybody feel this aimless at first? It’s not a good
day for feeling cut out for grad school, but it’s also my first day back from
vacation, which is always tricky. Is there going to be a point where I feel a
little less…floaty? If that makes any sense…
